Some flaw I've always always always had is that I don't pray enough. I look around me, and nearly everyone else has massive faith in the power of prayer. THey know, understand, and trust what prayer can do.

not me. I know that I should understand the power of prayer, but I don't know it, I don't feel compelled to do so, so I don't. I know it's not the right stance, and yet I maintain it anyways.

But, BUT...I can talk the talk sooo soo well. I talk the talk as one who has walked the walk, and the thing is that it sounds like the only way I can speak such words is that I have walked teh walk.
posted by justin at 11:48 PM

Oh, btw, I do have emotions. But the cheesy kind.

You know, chick flicky kind.

The kind that take every ounce of my energy and strength to keep my relationships at platonic friendship level.

I am sooooo tempted to turn something/someone into a friendlationship.

And all I got to do is turn to God for strength. Don't you hate it that you have the knowledge/intellect to be able to diagnose your own problem, but not the wisdom to do something about it?
posted by justin at 2:06 AM

OW : Bea said no also. But that's okay, datelessness isn't ever a problem for me...yet.

Man, if anyone knew the last time I seriously spent time with God...I'd be dateless for the rest of college. And that's only ONE thing that could make me dateless for the rest of college.

I feel as if I'm broken, yet not feel broken. Like, if the sun were to totally fall off the face of the universe, Earthlings woulndn't know it until 8 minutes later. Well, same with me. I sense that I'm broken, yet it won't hit me until I'm royally screwed.

God, why did you create me this way? I don't think this is a flaw, I think this is who You created Justin to be. A man of logic and reason, a man who can almost voluntarily turn on and off his emotions like a light switch.

Or do I even have emotions?

Why do I get the feeling I want someone to stumble onto this??
posted by justin at 1:46 AM